I’ve been thinking about this for awhile now..and while I was working out yesterday (yes people, you’ve heard that correctly) a song came on my ipod that made it all clear to me.
It was about 9 years ago now that I had the pleasure of working with one Ms. Britney Spears.
We actually spent enough time together she knew my name- which saved me at an event at Virgin Records at Downtown Disney…but that’s another story for another time.

My impression of her then: Nice girl, not so bright, easily impressionable.
At the time, one of her managers was Johnny Wright. He’s this record producer in Orlando- and known for working with Backstreet Boys and NSync. He was working with her…and she was just in awe. He drove a white BMW….so she went out and bought a white BMW….to be like him…even though she didn’t have her license yet.
When she told me that story, I knew, she was in trouble.

I think that if people are not grounded in who they are, they will never know, but just float all around trying to figure it out. I think that’s been her problem. She never had a chance to discover herself….she’s been pushed around by her family, her agents, publicists, managers and who knows who else.
Now, she’s all grown up- tired of everyone running her life, and is now running it herself…and she’s doing an awful job of it…
And I think this is the song that made her stop and think about that….She just hasn’t figured out how to live her life yet.

you might think that i wont make it on my own
but now im
Stronger than yesterday
now its nothin’ but my way
my loneliness ain’t killing me no more
i…im stronger
Than i ever thought that i could be

i used to go with the flow
didn’t really care ’bout me

You might think that i cant take it
but your wrong
‘Cause now im
Stronger than yesterday
now its nothin’ but my way
my lonliness ain’t killing me no more
i…im stronger

come on now
oh yeah
here i go
on my own
i dont need no body
better off alone

here i go on my own now
i dont need no body not any body
here i go